Day 5: Find a picture of somewhere you would like to visit

Somewhere I have always wanted to visit is Iceland to see the northern lights.  I'm not a very outdoorsy person and am not that interested in natural things or wildlife but I am so fascinated by the northern lights.  I would still love to know more about how the colours appear and the science behind it.  For me this would be the one place I want to visit and that is why it is on my bucket list.  The only question that is unanswered for me is who would I go with?

Day 4: Find a picture that makes you smile

After looking through all the pictures on my phone there was no way I could pick one picture that made me laugh so I carefully picked pictures that cheer me up.  

    My horse makes me laugh and I have quite a few pictures of my horse that make me laugh so the first picture was just one that makes me laugh as I always tease her like the younger sister I never had.   The second and third picture are photos I have had on my phone for ages but they make me laugh because I think they are really clever and they just make me smile at the idea of a dog blowing a candle out and rice men having a laugh in a bath. The fourth is a song some of you may have heard of but I think it is hilarious and the picture just reminds me of how crazy the song is and how you should always try and be crazy in life.

    This collage makes me smile (and laugh) as it reminds me of the great things in life and gives me hope that life can be great as long as you remember to smile. 

Day 3: Take a picture of something you love

I got Mel two years ago now and she was my first pony.  When I first got her I thought I was some kind of amazing rider that would be heading straight to HOYS (Horse Of The Year Show) but it didn't quite turn out like that.  I found that it takes a lot more hard work then that an also time.  You have to have a bond with the horse which sounds rather cheesy but it's important.  When I first got Mel of course I loved her but when I rode her she was just a pony.  Over the last two years though she has come to mean so much more to me.  I used to ride her and know exactly what she was going to do and we became a team (which also sounds really cheesy but true). In May we went to our favourite show of the year: The Suffolk County Show.  It wasn't a very nice day and had been raining a lot. Before we started getting ready I had a hurricane in my stomach like always but I was slightly excited as we would be doing two classes and one was a qualifier for HOYS.  It still didn't matter that much to me anymore about winning but about doing our best and using the show as an experience.  

    When we went over the last fence though Mel landed on three legs.  She came out and everyone thought she had just tripped but I knew she had hurt herself.  After calling the vet over we found later on she had slipped her tendon off her hock.  We were told that she wouldn't be able to show again and we are still going through the resting process but my point is that she is something I love so much.  This picture was taken a few months back when Mel was out on rest in the field and I had to say goodbye.

   Mel is the thing that I love more then anything and I think I realised that when she became injured.  When I was riding I knew something was wrong immediately and my only concern was for her.  She has taught me so and I can't imagine life without her.  

Should it just be about the voice?

Saturday nights have been taken over recently by the very popular singing show 'The X Factor'.  Most years I try to avoid the show that always seem to go on for weeks on end and over the years it just seems to get worse and worse.  This year seemed a bit different though as they were replacing the Female Boss with the red headed queen.  Yes that's right Mrs O was coming back!

   It has been surprisingly good and I've quite enjoyed having my Saturday nights taken up by the program (except for the ads they have every 15 minutes).  I agreed with most o their decisions until it got to judges houses.

    After seeing some of the acts that were sent through and some that were going home I started to think is it just about the voice and more then that should it just be about the voice?

    One act who was sent home by Louis from the boys group was a slightly overweight boy but he had in my opinion one of the best voices.  Instead of picking him he went for a boy who wasn't a great singer but definitely looked like one.  I'm not saying the X Factor are being fatists but I'm saying that maybe the overall picture does affect our judgement and influences our opinions.  Not just looks but also confidence and characteristics.  Of course being an artist means being polite and having a good attitude but you can't seem to get away with being shy anymore.

   Sharon has the Over 25s this year and at her house I disagreed with her decision to put Shelley Smith through.  Yes Shelley had this bubbly and fun personality but again there were others with better voices.  Her and Sharon also got on very well which made me think should your likeability matter?

    I had been watching a bit of The Voice while it was on and I like the idea of it because it agrees with the fact that it should be based purely on your voice, but for me the show has been a bit of a flop in comparison.  It lacks the interest that The X Factor normally has and maybe singers do need to be more about the voice to be interesting enough for the audience to want to watch.

    When you look at most artists nowadays they have 'the full package' which basically means they are crazy.  Look at Lady Gaga, Jessie J, Katy Perry, Rihanna and Miley Cyrus they all either act a little weird or crazy or do things to make themselves memorable and controversial.  

   After thinking about it maybe as an artist you do need to be more than a voice although I'm not totally sure I agree with being picked on personality.  After all when you hear them on the radio you only hear the voice.  I guess it is a bit like anything though nowadays where you don't actually need to be the good a singer with auto tune you just need to be likeable.

  So is it just about the voice? Definitely not.  Should it be just about the voice? Well I guess that is up to you.

TV: Made in Chelsea: Episode 3 Series 6

I was really excited about this episode after watching the promo over and over again.  I knew that the now two love triangles would be raised to a heated level and that would be the main drama along with Spencer and Stephanie.

    So first lets start with triangle number 1: Alex, Binky and Fran.  I couldn't help but feel really sorry for Fran and even though I love Binky and Alex I felt like what he did was a little bit cruel.  After weeks of flirting together Alex realised he had feelings for Binky while Fran was all over Alex thinking he felt the same way. 

     They all sit around at a bar talking when Alex invites the two to a house warming party which seems all very friendly.  Later on Jamie and Alex meet up to play rugby and Jamie being the ultimate love guru that he is tells Alex to cancel with Fran so he can be alone with Binky.  Alex being the innocent idiot he is goes along with the plan and texts Fran telling her he got injured in rugby and is going to have to cancel.  Little for he know Fran is at Cheskas' house planning her outfit for the evening and telling Cheska how much she likes Alex.

      At dinner Alex first lies to Binky telling her Fran couldn't make it but later telling her the truth.  After feeling bad for a second Binky and Alex kiss but obviously still feeling bad about Fran.  When it come to the party Fran finds out the truth and confronts Alex saying she likes him and that he is an idiot and better treat Binky right.  Bit of awkward tension in the air?

      Let's move onto love triangle number 2 then: Jamie, Phoebe and Lucy.  In the start of the episode we see Jamie taking Phoebe on her promised date whilst flirting with her when she gets a phone call from Louise telling her how Jamie slept with Lucy Watson! Wow didn't see that one coming! Not.  Anyway Jamie goes on to tell Spenny who says that they can't ever go out which Jamie agrees to. 

      After they all sit round and have a gossip about it Jamie and Lucy talk things out but it doesn't go great as he says she isn't being honest and walks away.  It all ends at the party though when Lucy and Phoebe get into a nice catfight (which Lucy kind of won).  After Phoebe calls Lucy a 'slut' the claws come out with the words 'unpleasant' and ending in 'your nose ring looks weird' which I had to agree with as I couldn't stop staring at it the whole time the camera was on her.

    Right at the end Jamie comes to the bar to talk to Miss Watson and she finally tells him her feelings before they kiss. Aaaww

      So my final topic has to end with Spencer and Stephanie.  I thought Steph seemed like Spencer's perfect match as she was lovely but the two obviously got on well.  They spent time in the swimming pool and seemed to be almost in love? Dare I say the word Spencer!  But then we find out that Spencer didn't go home one one night and was staying at a 'friends' house.  She say that she doesn't need this when she has her family at home.  Looks like that might be the last we see of Miss Pratt and I have to say a tear did just fall from my eye as she was a great addition to the show....oh well I'm sure they will replace her with someone else. Maybe they should go for Geordie Shore this time or are we thinking more Desperate Housewives? 

Day 2: Find a picture of something you would like to have

What would I like to have in life? A pair of louboutins? An unlimited supply of paco rabonne perfume? A walk in wardrobe with perfect clothes that suited me? Well of course! But the question I thought about was what would I like to find most in life? And that would have to be love.  Of course being loved by your friends and family is great but how about finding your soulmate or not even that but just getting lost in love with someone else.  

   The picture features all the sweet part of young love including that kiss in the rain that ends every good girly romance movie as well as celebrity love.  Love is holding hands and guiding each other through life. It's being able to lean on each other and know that person will always be by your side. It's becoming a different person, but at the same time remaining yourself, and when ever you're with him you are fearless and nothing else in the world could possibly matter (hint the movie scene where they don't care that it is raining because they are too busy kissing).

    Love for me is the one thing I wish I had and something that I will try and find and hopefully one day I will.

Day 1: Put a quote to a picture you've taken

I took this picture while I was down at Mersea in the summer.  My cousin and I went out one evening and thought we would get a picture walking along the jetty.  I thought the quote goes well as it is one of my favourite quotes.  It basically says that when you're at the end of your life looking back at it, it's not going to matter how long you lived for or how easily you got through life but how many good memories you have of it.  This pictures reminds me that we have to accept the bad times in life but live in the moment of the good ones and take it all in.  We have to try and capture them in our heads.  The view I had from standing on that jetty was really amazing and it reminded me that you don't always need to go to an exotic country to get a moment that takes your breath away.  It also reminds me of that whole holiday and captures all the amazing moments I had on it.

7 Day Photo Challenge

Tomorrow I am going to start the 7 day photo challenge.  I am excited and hope that others might participate in it as well. 

Day 1: Put a quote to a picture you've taken

Day 2: Find a picture of something you would like to have

Day 3: Take a picture of something you love

Day 4: Find a picture that makes you smile

Day 5: Find a picture of somewhere you would like to visit

Day 6: Find a picture that inspires you

Day 7: Make a collage on things you would like or already have

50 Things I want to do before I die

1. See the northern lights

2. Learn fluent Spanish 

3. Go on a scavenger hunt

4. Ride in a helicopter

5. Kiss in the rain

6. Visit the Great Wall of China

7. Jump in a pool fully clothed

8. Find the love of my life

9. Get my dream job

10. Learn sign language

11. Be on TV

12. Donate blood

13. Change someone's life for the better

14. Swim with dolphins

15. Learn how to skateboard

16. Visit all 50 US States

17. Go to an awards show

18. Go to a party like Project X

19. Do a modelling shoot

20. Make a movie

21. Create a blog

22. Go to a masquerade ball

23. Compete in a sailing competition

24. Ride an elephant

25. Go on the perfect date

26.Go on a road trip with my best friend

27.  Meet Demi Lovato

28.  Have perfect teeth

29. Dye my hair

30. Use a fake name in Starbucks 

31. Try crayon art

32. Ride at HOYS

33. Visit India

34. Live in a big city

35. Feel beautiful 

36. Learn how to surf

37. Make my own perfume

38. Watch the whole 'How I Met Your Mother' series 

39. Volunteer at a charity

40. Ride a horse down the beach

41. Go to a music festival 

42. Win the lottery

43. Go on an exchange 

44. Go shopping in New York

45. Dive with sharks 

46. Go fishing and catch a fish

47. Be part of a flash mob 

48. Go back to the ice cream shop in Thailand (personal one)

49. Tie any regrets/secrets to balloons and let them go

50. Have a food fight

Undefinable

Some might ask why it is called 'An Undefinable Blog' , maybe it is because I couldn't think of a name so instead of coming up with something clever and quirky I went for something rather dull, I would probably say the name more comes from me. 

    When you create a blog all the websites say you should write about a particular topic that your readers will be interested in and to give it a target audience like fishers or something.  I didn't want that though.  I didn't want to limit my readers and I didn't want a particular topic but rather post things on TV or stories or just my life. 

   I want there to be something for most people and I wanted it to describe me as a person.  When I came to think about it I really can't sum myself up with a title like others do.  I've heard of blogs like 'that girl' or 'it girl' which I always thought were quite cool names but in brutal honesty to myself I am not 'that girl'.  But I'm okay with not being 'that girl' and just another girl that has a story behind her just like everybody else does in life.  

   I think whilst trying to create the blog I started trying to sum myself and make a meaning of who I am and trying to find a title for my blog made me dig much deeper into that question I hadn't thought much of before.  It made me think of how people have called me names and tried to title me and actually not just me but all girls.  We do it to each other and sometimes without realising.  This doesn't have to mean in a hurtful way that makes us upset but sometimes in a kind way that gives us expectations.  That was when I realised how much we like to define people in life and title things to make it easier.   We like to give a blog a title that is obvious and the same with books.  You look at the title and you automatically assume what it will be like and whether you will like it.  

  When I come to think of myself I think of how people have called me names over the years maybe never mean ones but people like to sum you up and define you.  People like to talk about you and they forget that you never really know a person but still they try and define you.  

  When I come to think of a school I recently joined there is a girl who I have known for a while and I remembered the names people used to call her: slut, easy and others.  People took this one thing she did in life and they defined her as it.  They forgot that there was more to her then a tag.  

  I guess my point is that people have called me names and talked about me behind my back but you have to turn around and say to them to carry on.  Let them tag you and give you names so that it is easier for them but I know that people are much deeper then that.  I let them talk because their words will never define me.  Their words will not change me. They can title me all they like but I refuse to be titled.  I like everyone else am an undefinable person.  When you realise that in life nobodies opinion of you matters anymore.  If you remember that you can't be defined then nobody can ever define you.

    This blog defines me perfectly in an ironic way.  This blog is just me writing away and hopefully people will read it and understand who I am.  They will understand me but they won't be able to define me because nobody can.

Story: The Beach

My eyes looked over the water as the  sun gleamed over the ripples of water.  It was so beautiful here.  I had forgotten after being away for so long.  The boats as white as snow glided over the sea in the distance taking me back to my sailing days. It was a perfect day for sailing.  A good amount of wind and a heat that made the water seem like heaven.  That beautiful sun. The sun that lit up the pale blue sky.  I looked over at him sitting on the grainy sand, it wasn't quite like the sand in Portugal but it was about as good as it gets in England. His washed out blue shorts made his eyes light up and his surf board style made him fit in perfectly here, unlike me, I stuck out like a sore thumb.  The only unusual thing about him was his very fair skin, but I thought it made him rather...beautiful.  The sun shimmered over his porcelain skin.  He sat there as cool as a cucumber; not a worry in the world.  He slowly turned his head towards me and looked into my eyes unintentionally captivating me.  

"So what was it like there?"he tentatively asked.

I flinched at the thought of talking about it.  I hadn't talked to anybody about it even though I knew everyone wanted to ask.  Only he had the courage to ask me.

"It was...urm...I don't really talk about it."

He tried to catch my eyes again but I didn't let him. I made sure my focus stayed on the ground. 

"You're not going to tell me?"he said with a little frustration or maybe anger in his voice.

I bit my lip and looked back over at the sea hoping that he would read the body language.

"Fine.  I couldn't contact you for two months, couldn't visit you because you didn't want that but I did it for you.... I didn't talk to other people and shut myself off from the world.. just.. waiting for you to come out and...be okay."

I could sense disappointment so I forced myself to look at him.  I could now see that I was starting to pay for everything that had happened in the world while I had been away.  Reality was starting to catch me up, and it was hitting me like a tonne of bricks.

Story: Animal Essay

We trundled down the long path scuffing up the dirt and kicking a stone we had found about two miles back between us.  I only ever went on the walks for Ali because she loves going on long walks but today it looked as if I would have been better off leaving her in bed.  It was noon and no doubt she had probably been asleep until an hour ago.  Her eyes were only half open and her walk was so slow that it made the path feel like it went on for ever.  She held a large packet of fattening crisps in her hands and she started to lick her fingers as she finally finished the packet off.  "Wake Up Ali! Honestly I only come on these walks for you!"
"Fine I'll be more active!"
She stopped, closed her eyes and when she opened them she suddenly looked brighter like energy had just been pumped into her blood stream.  She tended to get bursts of energy and all of a sudden her pace dramatically picked up leaving me fumbling behind her.
"I'm really hungry,"she moaned.   I gave her a look and as she stared blankly back at me, I moved my eyes to the crisp packet hinting to her that she had just eaten but Ali was always hungry. She rolled he eyes at me because I always continuously told her that she should eat less and be more healthy.
"So how is Maisy?"I asked.
"We're not friends anymore." She said blankly.
"Why?"
"She tried to steal my boyfriend."
I sighed and smiled to myself. I didn't like to laugh at her but I just loved when she uses the word 'steal'. One thing you should know about Ali is that her boyfriend is like her territory, you just don't go there. If you did then that was the end of your existence to her. I knew how overpowering she could be and I knew how dearly she cared for her boyfriend so if anyone were to try and 'steal' him from her then there would probably be some sort of fight and Ali certainly had the courage to start one.
"So have you been by yourself a lot?"
"A bit but I don't mind. I can be by myself."
That was true but I also knew how much Ali loved to socialise with others and today she didn't  quite look herself. Her face usually garnished with make up and potions beforehand was unusually bare.
"Don't worry about me Katie! Honest. I can look after myself. I know you like me to have friends but I have moral rule in my head and this girl crossed into my territory."
I smiled into her fierce eyes and I knew she wasn't lying. She reminded me of some sort of animal. The way she talked about territory, always wanting to sleep, always eating, her great care in self appearance, the long walks, having the courage of..that's it! She was just like a lion

TV: Made In Chelsea :Episode 2 Series 6

When I sat down on Monday night to watch my favourite reality TV show I was expecting the same disappointment as last week but boy was I wrong.  The TV show that I fell in love with is definatley back to its old ways. Lucy was back on form and rather then be the tell tale that cries she became her old straight talking self again. 
It starts with introducing the american TV celeb Stephanie Pratt (Spencer's new girlfriend).  They meet at Heathrow Airport and as she steps out of the taxi with her long legs and gorgeous hair they quickly bump into Binky. How coincindentual? She says she has an open ended ticket and word quickly gets around with Stephanie being the new gossip of Chelsea.  Some are a little suprised at how quickly he has moved on but I can't help thinking that she fits well with Spencer and she might be the girl that can finally tame the love rat that is Spencer Matthews. 
  There is some trouble in paradise with Louise and Andy is they finally put an end to the relationship.  They ended things last episode saying they would just be on a break as Andy needs time to breath and as the episode went on it seemed they were going to make the decision to stay together.  They talked things over at dinner but then Spencer and Stephanie walked into the same restaurant and made themselves at home by sitting down with them.  Andy starts to have an aggresive conversation with Spencer who acts very innocent in front of his new girlfriend ending in Louise and Andy walking out of the restaurant leaving Spencer with the bill...nice one!  Andy later admits to Lucy the next day he 'crumbled' and slept with Louise leaving him very confused of his feelings.  Lucy then tells him that Louise and Spencer have been texting ending in Andy having a heated discussion with Louise at Polo before telling her that it is over. 
  Meanwhile Fran and Alex go and have lunch together to discuss their feelings for each other while Phoebe and Jamie walk past leaving Phoebe fuming at the fact that her friend is out witn her ex.  She also confronts her at the Polo while pulling faces at everything Cheska says under her hat.  How mature.  She then goes to stand by herself when Jamie walks over and tells her he stills has feelings for her and then the two plan to go on a date.  Jamie throughout the episode flirts with Lucy though and I can feel a love triangle coming on between two sworn enemies.  Anbody else excited to see how this plays out? Have to say I'm Team Lucy all the way!

Please leave a comment or your opinion of the epiosde (and what team you are on)

TV: The Only Way Is Essex: Sunday 20th October

This episode was the best in so far in the series for me. It had drama, dmc's (deep meaningful conversations), comedy and a fight between Gemma and Arg to finish it off.  First of all let's start with Sam.  In the episode she sits down with Joey and finally has a chat about a possible relationship which ends with Joey saying it's not going to happen *sad face*  After this she has to decide what to do with holiday romance Elliott (who is also Jess' cousin).  She says she can't choose between her head and heart and after all his nice compliments and gentlemen charm Sam decides they should remain friends.  

    While shopping round in a supermarket in the vegetable aisle Chloe and Lauren tell Frankie they are both going to get boob reductions to have more natural boobs.  This will go nicely with Chloe's new teeth that she got downsized.  Am I the only one who feels Chloe is becoming less of an Essex girl and more all about the natural?

    Another comedy highlight for me is the art session Arg and Diags attended.  They went there expecting to see a model stripping down for them but instead got a rather old woman doing the same trick.  The boys couldn't help but laugh and could barely hold it in.  They then go and try and chat up some other girls attending the class before inviting them to the sugar hut later on.  Arg got himself into hot water with Miss Collins though as he claims they slept together in Vegas.  Gemma denies the rumours and at the end they get into another argument about sleeping together. De ja vu anyone?

Please leave a comment or your opinion of the episode

TV: Made in Chelsea Series 6 Returns!

                 
                                   

On Monday night I was sitting in my bed at 10pm waiting for the BAFTA award winning show that is ‘Made in Chelsea’.  Like many other fans of the show I had seen the promo on E4 earlier that week and I was very excited to watch the cast bring new drama to my TV screen.  I had started watching the show a few series back and got hooked quickly on this reality TV show.  However on Monday night I couldn’t help feel a little…disappointed.  Let’s face it the TV show has always been quite structured.  For example normal people don’t tend to bump into their enemies/friends everywhere they go, especially in a place that is meant to be busy but on the show looks a little dead.  However the first episode to series six looked like it might have had a script to go with it.  Saying this however parts of the episode were quite amusing and it definitely had lots of drama!

Let me start off by talking about Spencer, Lucy, Louise and Andy.  They seem to be the main characters and it looks as if the series might just revolve around Spencer.  The episode starts off with Spencer in a therapy session talking about relationship problems and he sort of answers the question on everyone’s minds: Why did he cheat on Lucy Watson?  He goes on through the episode pretending like his and Lucy’s relationship was just a rebound from Louise and that he is the perfect shoulder to cry on.  Meanwhile Louise and Andy break up. Shocker! After hearing rumours and Lucy giving Andy a juicy piece of information he finally ends his relationship with Louise.  Now Lucy is one of my favourite characters and I love her straight talking attitude which gives the programme a comedic tone as well as making drama, but I couldn’t help but feel a little betrayed by her normal ways when she went and told Andy and got her nose stuck in the situation.  It feels like she is becoming just another cast member that goes around stirring the drama up but not in a good way.

  Louise gets all teary in her bedroom later on telling Rosie how she is going to fight for the relationship.  Her and Spencer take a surprising turn and now have become friends? Even though last series they hated each other? Spencer goes round to Louise just after the break up and tells her he will always be on her side? *Confused face* 

Another story line waiting to happen is the scenario of Phoebe, Fran and Alex.  If you don’t know already Alex is Phoebe’s first serious boyfriend that she dated years ago.  Fran is very good friends with Phoebe and even describes her as a ‘sister’ in the episode.  Through the summer though a spark has started to fly between Fran and Alex and they even kissed.  Fran goes to tell Phoebe who looks utterly disgusted telling Fran they she is not allowed to go there while giving her a dirty look which kind of made me think she was Cruella De Vil. 

The funniest part for me is the pool moment starring Francis and Rosie.  Francis is commando in the pool when Rosie walks past and has to throw his swimming trunks to him.  He maybe asks at an inappropriate time if she would like to go out with him and maybe become more than just friends.  Rosie doesn’t seem to feel the same way as she blushes but laughs at the idea. 

Please leave your comments on the episode and your opinion of it